"I heard that you loved me
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But only for two weeks
To be hopeless or not to be,
I'm weak with indecision
Could we begin again
On a terrible date
It would be greatly appreciated by me
I'll wear my normal shoes this time
Then maybe you'd like me
Better in the sunlight
If I built a raft
Will you stay with me then
And fall in love all over again"
I think about the choice I made every single day and wonder if I chose the wrong one. I told you
"No matter what path you choose you'll sigh and wish you'd taken the other" and for almost a year I've been sighing wishing I had chosen you.
Its so hard seeing you in public so often. You seem happy and healthy and that makes me feel good to see but I can't help but feel like something is missing without you in my life.
I heard that you are moving away before too long and I am so glad to hear you'll be living out your dreams. You were probably the only person who could have pulled me out of my shell and convinced me to leave this podunk little backwater town but I was too afraid. Too scared of change and too fearful of the unknown.
I wish I'd had more courage then and chose you over her.
Still, I'll always be grateful for the time I got to spend with you and I'll always carry you with me in my heart and in the back of my mind.
I wish I wouldn't have ghosted out of your life the way that I did. I know you needed me and I hate that I was a coward in that way too.
I know you'll probably never read this and that this Craigslist post is just another way that I am not really facing my fears but if you ever read this, know that I want to have better closure and I'll always love you.